)%)(*-Picasso's Smiley and update worth 5 days.

I can't believe I haven't posted since Wednesday. Well, Maybe I can. A lot has happened since then. And my computer hasn't been very friendly.
*First off, I decided to put my cooking blog idea in the garbage disposal. I was just trying to fool myself with that. I really can't cook. Not even oatmeal. Every time I manage to turn my back just before it decides to overflow and make a huge mess all over the microwave. And don't even get me started on my first attempt at frying something last Thursday. At least I made cooking fun for a while. Well about as fun as a paper cut. With lemon juice on it. (All you have to do is:...)
**Second, I'm thinking of changing my position on marriage. I'm absent minded. And I lose stuff. A lot. Like my watch. I think I dropped it in physics recitation in the first week of last semester. And my memory verse packet and keys- at least once a week. But Friday really tops my list. I forgot to put my physics answer pad (which I paid over $17 for) in my backpack because I forgot I had physics lecture. But that was okay because nobody could figure out how to put up the questions. (Physics at work!) Any as I sat outside physics, waiting for the class before me to get out, I started talking to one of my friends and ended up walking in with just my backpack and without my helmet, gloves, scarf and bandana. And somebody decided that the hallway was a bad place for a helmet. So I'm really praying that I get at least it and my gloves back. Anyway, maybe a wife could keep track of my stuff for me.
***On the good side, Physics is a lot better. Our original professor lost his visa, so we got a new one. Who knows how to teach AND he can speak fluent English! So now we can focus on learning instead of translating. I even got all of my homework done before the deadline! I feel kind of bad for the first prof though.
****I didn't know riding a bike could be so frightening. I did a practice ride on Thursday so I can get back in shape a little, and I accidentally ended up going along next to Grant St. Downhill. In snow. The whole way I was thinking I'm gonna die I'm gonna die. Actually I was like "I'm gonna get hurt really bad." I wouldn't mind dying; I just can't take lying in bed watching the spiders spin webs on my face.
*****So I've been reading other peoples blogs and noticing a common thread among most of them. They argue with their parents, they drink, they dump, they cry, they argue with their siblings, they get high, they get dumped, they cry, they argue with their friends, they hate their life and get no satisfaction out of it, but they keep on living what they think is impossible to change because they are to afraid of death to consider that alternative. (Suicide)
I want to go to these people with the same love that Christ approached me with and tell them that it doesn’t have to be that way. There is an alternative! Not just a pathetic “10 steps to quit bad habits” alternative either. Something Real. Someone True. Somebody that allows me to rest in the peace of knowing that even though I lose everything I touch, and mess up every meal I make, everything is still okay because I am loved and forgiven. A Lord that provides for me spiritually, physically, and emotionally, so I can have true EVERLASTING satisfaction in Him and not temporary unfulfilling highs.
Unfortunately comments don’t really work because the love gets lost behind the computer screen, and they are like “What do you know? You’ve never been deserted, You’ve never been abused, You’ve never had to go through what I’ve had to.” It’s true but that’s what they miss. I’ve never been deserted because God deserted Jesus on the cross, so that He could always uphold me. He let the Christ be abused that He might protect me from all ill. He let my savior go through things that are worse than humans can imagine, so that I would never have to. It’s so amazing! It’s so wonderful!
Let's see if my computer works this time.